I just needed to vent

Its not enough.

None of this is enough anymore.

I'm a kind person and I choose to remain kind and caring. But I'm losing my mind in this house. Its not a happy place and its not my house. Its not anything to me anymore.

How do I stop caring? Because caring is hurting me to much. Loving and trying is hurting me far too much.

Nobody knows who i am and i don't even know who i am anymore. I don't even know what i want. All i know is I'm happy when I'm with him. But who I am gets completely lost when i'm here.

I have no idea.