The importance of trust. To trust the instincts, not the face.

Trust is the pinacle of human interacton, it is the main foundation for relationships and friendships, it allows us to confide and bond with other people. When that is lost, you are drowning whilst watching everybody else breathe. I trusted one person in my life whole heartedly, this person was not a friend, in fact there was an awful lot they never ever knew. It was not my Mom or any member of my family.

The one person I trusted was the boy I was in love with, and though he is but a past chapter, I was never wrong to trust him, he never betrayed my trust, him being the first to allow me to trust and because of this, to me, he became my best friend no matter how much we fought and argued. Before him, I trusted nobody and at one point I felt everybody was out to get me, I lost trust in not only people but the world itself.

But now I believe such a concept of trust to not live within experiences shared, nor length of time of friendship or even the depth of every factor and moment that ties people together. Trust survives in the heart of who you share. I've learnt the biggest hearts are also the most modest, the biggest hearts aren't the ones that gloat and brag about it, they aren't the ones that have never done anything wrong, but the ones you know you can trust. They are the ones that you know they have more to offer and often don't realise their own potential.

When I said to the person who inspired this post that I think he has a bigger heart than he lets on, he replied with 'my heart is bigger than any ocean', I may not know him very well and our contact may have been short, but I don't doubt this one bit. (Also he is hella hot and reads this so lets give him a round of applause) *applauses*.

Ah how I love to embarrass myself.

I could write essays on the importance of trust and how alone and scared you can feel when you loose the ability to trust, because that is the thing. Trust is a social lubricant, if we couldn't trust, we will never not be alone. I am only begining to regain such an ability, I don't know if its because you are yet to betray me, or if its the trees, the moon and stars, or something unseeable and unspoken, or even just the rainpour.

Friendship doesn't need to be deep nor vast, it doesn't have to hurdle challenges and fights. Trust is matter of the heart, not love, just the goodness of the person. And finally, those that surround me are not all out to get me, though I wouldn't fight it if they were, I simply accept abuse and misuse now.

Please trust, but trust carefully, Don't trust every person, because people will betray you, but learn to trust your insticts of others. Insticts and feelings cannot be disguised, but faces and hearts can. You will know when you can and can't trust, when you learn to trust yourself. This may sound so corney and if you have managed to read until this point, then well done, you deserve an applause aswell *applauses*.

I've been alone, completely isolated and alone, and still even on this there are things I can't speak of but if you possess the ability to trust, then you are never truly alone. And never ever, I beg of you, never ever allow somebody to hurt you so bad you loose that ability, because that is yours and whilst you have it, you win, no matter how much you feel you have lost.

All my love

JulietX

To the community I have found via social media, I know one of you have planned your suicide. And I have tried everything within my power to convince and beg of you to not do so. I ask again, I beg. How can you be so damn beautiful and strong and have no idea of it? I'm counting the days down with you, until the date you wish to pursue, but don't, please. The world needs you.